Hurry Up And Wait....

Well, the first round of testing is over, and I'm waiting to move into the second.  I know for certain I'm not pregnant, but that's all I know.  They found something on the ultrasound they really don't like so my images got sent from one of the smaller local hospitals straight through to the regional hospital here instead of to my family doctor which is why it took so long for anyone who could give me answers to track them down.  Anyway, I guess I'm back to more of the same "Hurry up and wait", Man I hate this game.  I feel like I should be doing something, and in my world, "worry" doesn't count as doing something, otherwise I'd be beyond busy.  On that note I got called back to work, I thought it would be good as it would give me something to do, but my mind was anywhere but where it needed to be, and even without counting the fact that I jabbed a 5-6 mm dirty (and somewhat dull) needle completely into two different fingers within 30 minutes of each other (probably closer to 15) I almost did myself in my first day back, today was a little better, but my focus was still a million miles away.  I know it's just my family's history that's making me paranoid, but I can't help but worry.  CT scan is booked for October 21st and I need to call my GP's office back on Monday or Tuesday to book another appointment, as her secretary wasn't in today.  I definitely didn't anticipate things going like they have, I still have so many more questions than answers...and no end in sight.